Hi! I’m Nicki Thompson, a 36 year old dreamer, procrastinator and movement
enthusiast with a growing interest in the art of self-mastery – even though I’m as far from having mastered myself as a person can be, but I’m happy to say I’m working on it.
It all started back in 2014, the year my teenage son made the move to live with his father and my boyfriend came to the realization that we weren’t compatible and so ended it with me. For the first time in as long as I could remember I was alone, with no one to answer to, and no one to take care of, I felt that this new situation called for a drastic move.
Most of my friends and family thought I was crazy for leaving my position as a ‘Relocation Advisor’ in Geilenkirchen, Germany. I mean come on, I was in Europe, but as much as I LOVED my time in Europe, once the novelty wore off all I was left with was a job that wasn’t making me happy, so I resigned from my post and took off to Thailand on an extended 10 month escapade.
Thailand was one of the most amazing adventures of my life; a trip filled with Muay Thai, sleeping in, exotic cuisine, sun drenched lazy afternoons, and bustling markets at night. I even got to experience a real Muay Thai fight (as a fighter and not a spectator I mean), I also made some good friends along the way. But I went there without a plan, kinda just hoping that I’d have some experience that would change my life forever and afford me the privilege of being able to continue travelling and certainly never having to work in an office again. I’m not sure how I thought that would happen, maybe I’d have a mind blowing experience that would become the story of my best selling novel, or maybe I’d meet the love of my life while I was in Thailand a la ‘Eat, Love, Pray.’
Sadly, none of that happened. The reality of it was that I ended up spending all of my money and then had to return home to Montreal, Quebec to start over again from scratch, because I had no money, no job, no connections, leads or prospects.
So after crashing on my cousin’s couch for a couple of months, wallowing in my travel sickness (is that the opposite of homesickness?) I finally picked myself back up, got a job, and moved out of my cousin’s place. I was happy that the Universe granted me my request to not work in an office again, but I was still far from living the dream. I was now in a dead end job, without even the basic “security” of a pension, medical and dental benefits, paid vacation that I had when I worked with the feds.
Don’t get me wrong, in general I’m actually doing really good. No security, dead end job or not, at least I’m not working in an office, I also only work three days a week which earns me enough money to pay my living expenses, indulge in entertainment and still have enough to put a few pesos away on the side. Four days off a week means I have plenty of time to engage in my own projects, and when I have down time at work I can work on whatever I want. I have my health, a roof over my head, a comfortable bed, access to, and the means to acquire healthy and clean food and water. So compared to a lot of people in the world I’m winning at life, something I’m extremely grateful for. Still, after a year in this job that I thought I’d have for no more than three months I felt it was time to re-start my employment search so that I could find a “real” job, something that could offer the social benefits I mentioned above, as well as the possibility of promotions and if I’m really lucky a chance at working overseas again. So, despite the fact that I find 9-5 desk jobs to be soul crushing and the number one killer of creativity I started looking at job boards in the administrative field once again because that’s really all I’ve known and all I’ve ever have had success with job wise.
Even though I’m grateful for all that I have, I definitely wasn’t living life to the fullest. My four days off a week mainly involved my threesome love affair with my jogging pants, couch and Netflix. I was trading my time for money to help build someone else’s dream at my job and doing absolutely NOTHING for my own future.
Thankfully, one thing I did keep doing despite my laziness (although not as much as I would have liked) was read! The information in all of the self-help books that I’d been reading started to make it’s way into my subconscious, that, paired with the fact that for the first time in my life I was actually worried about my future and wondering what would become of me in my old age if I didn’t seriously get my shit together forced me to make the resolve to become a better person. I didn’t want all of the knowledge I’d gained from the books I’d read to go to waste, as the saying goes: ‘Knowing is not enough we must apply, willing is not enough we must do’.
Basically, my soul was lacking. It had been ages since I’d had something to strive towards. I needed to feel the sense of pride that comes from successfully completing a goal. The problem was that I had let many bad habits like laziness, procrastination, complacency, indifference, lack of direction and lack of self-control take root in my psyche, making it nearly impossible for me to set any goals for myself. Instead of working on my own future I was trading my time for a paltry sum to help my boss build HIS future.
It was actually the book ‘Think and Grow Rich’ by Napoleon Hill (although the seeds had already been planted from other books) that was the trigger that made me to stop my government job search and So I’ve summoned the courage to start work on a career that interests me, and I’ve mustered the will-power to not eat my weight in sugar on a daily basis and actually train regularly. I’ve set some goals, and I’ve made a plan to get there. Now what will need to happen is for me to exercise that muscle of perseverance to keep me moving forward push me forward until what I want has been achieved.
My objective with this blog is to practice my writing (a love of mine that I want to get back to and make a priority in my life), to use the blog as a form of accountability for keeping up with my goals, and to connect with and inspire others who may be having difficulty getting up and going. You can follow me as I go through the growing pains of breaking bad habits, strengthening my will-power and learning the art of setting and following through on goals.
I look forward to interacting with all of you!